Yes, you read that right I hate fake people. I usually don't use the word hate because it is such a strong word but in this case it's necessary.
So I just found out that someone I was kind of close to, was not as genuine as I thought they were. I will not put a name or even pretend to make up one because it's not worth the effort and I wont put this person out there like that (even though like 10 people read my blog). If she happens to read it she may know it's about her but I don't care either way. The name doesn't matter. So anyway, we were kinda close. I thought she was sweet, fun and cool. Come to find out, I annoy her and she probably doesn't even really like me, She just pretends to. Instead of telling me that, she has been telling people. I hate that she has been talking about me behind my back but doesn't have the nerve to tell me. She has been telling people that I annoy her, am lazy and sassy. Why did I have to hear this from other people? If this was high school or a lot of people knew me I wouldn't stress it. This is college and no one really knows me. So no one really knows me to be making up rumors about me. Especially ones like that. then to top it off, she acts all innocent like she hasn't done anything wrong. Like I'm in the wrong for keeping my distance and being kinda upset about it.
What's the big deal you ask? I am a genuine and sincere person. I don't act one way in someone's face and another behind their back. If I can be real with you why can't I get the same back? Why couldn't I at least been told the truth? If you don't like me, why can't I know that so I can leave you alone, so I can keep my distance?
People have been telling me to confront her. To tell her what's bothering me. To me it's not worth my breath. It won't change anything. It won't change the fact that people know things about me that the didn't need to know. won't change the fact that she didn't have the nerve to tell me to my face but could tell everybody else. It's just not worth it.
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